Creating One Day at a Time

Life Update [11]

    It has been a long time since I wrote an update.  However, life has gotten crazy as hell around here.  Right now there are currently 6 people living in this house and a baby on the way, due in about a month.  Then on top of that there are a good number of family members planning to visit.  Plus, I have appointments with my therapist, blood work, a check in with my hormone doctor and court to change my name and gender marker.  All of this is happening before I fly out to Colorado on June 19th.

    Once I’m out there, I’ll be there for two weeks.  I’m hoping it will be a fun little break from everything going on here.  As soon as I get back though it’ll be back to the races.  The day after I get back is the 4th of July, then I have a really good friend of mine flying out for a visit for about a week, then there’s a cousin of mine’s wedding, and my mom’s birthday….none of that includes transition related what not.  If everything goes the way I hope it does at court, there will be a lot of that to do though.  In the end however, it will be worth it.  Having an ID in my hand, with my preferred name and hopefully pronoun will be a truly surreal moment.  I can’t wait. 

    Other than that, at the end of June I’ll be six months on testosterone, which is kind of crazy to think about.  I have no idea where the time has gone.  I’m sure the next 7 months though will fly by just as fast.  With that said though, the further I get in this process the more certain I am that I made the right decision and I look forward to what’s ahead.  I have grown more in the past 5 months than I have in years.  For once in my life, I feel like I am getting closer to having a solid idea of who I am. 

    However, in relation to so many things when it comes to transitioning, there just are no words.  It doesn’t just change you physically, it effects every aspect of who you are.  It makes you grow as an individual.  Like I’ve mentioned before, in the past, before all this, I just felt stuck.  Since starting this process, I feel like I’m finally starting to move past that.  It’s amazing, despite the challenges it also brings.  Anyway, with that said, I hope you are all doing well.  Peace out.